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[Mar. 6th, 2006|11:27 pm] |
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well after the week long battle against influenza, i returned to work and school today. all i have to say? fuck. simple. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 24th, 2006|11:46 pm] |
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| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Wake Up- Cohhed and Cambria | ] |
blah. 1st semester grades are so-so. 5 B's 1 C. damn calc. Cumulative weighted GPA this year is like 3.3333. blah. thats shit. i work every day this weeek. blah! and SAT's saturday morning. BLAHAHAH. and i feel like shit. dry throat, migraine, not to mention a 2 page paper i dont feel like finishing tonite. and of course, the usual chronic depression. yippe for life. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|12:58 am] |
ok well.. heres what i hate:
friends who get pissed off at you bc you change plans
family who wants to fuck you over to benefit themselves
myself |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 19th, 2006|11:15 pm] |
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i hate my fucking life. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 2nd, 2006|08:31 pm] |
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| You scored as Theater. You should be a Theater major! Like a bohemian actress, you are seasoned and confident and not afraid to express yourself!
Theater | | 92% | Engineering | | 83% | Linguistics | | 83% | Mathematics | | 75% | Journalism | | 75% | Psychology | | 75% | Anthropology | | 75% | English | | 67% | Philosophy | | 67% | Biology | | 67% | Chemistry | | 67% | Art | | 58% | Dance | | 42% | Sociology | | 42% | </td>
What is your Perfect Major?
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interesting...theater? hmmm |
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| To go to school or not to go.. |
[Dec. 20th, 2005|12:27 am] |
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| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | These Walls - Trapt | ] |
i dont want to go to school tomorrow. blah blah blagagaga. work today was fun. bryson matt and myself. again.
talked to mandy tonight. that was fun.
dont wanna update more. tired.
night |
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| nearly christmas break..maybe start tonight? |
[Dec. 14th, 2005|10:31 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Enter Sandman - Metallica | ] |
dammit it better snow tomorrow.! id love to start the break so early...i could use the sleep. and the time to myself. have a few things i need to sort out, nothing really important just priorities i suppose.
work went good tonight. bryson matt and myself...all i need to say...cut my finger pretty deep. it bled through 2 bandaids and onto the inside of a plastic glove. rather disgusting.
anyways, good news.
im off tomorrow from work, maybe school too :) (does snow dance)
friday may be off/2hr delay i hope (snow dance, see above) and payday. have to work though.
saturday doing my christmas shopping, hanging out with matt before he goes to work, ashley at some point, hope maybe? and possibly mandy. then oging to silbys. woot.
sunday, i work morning, then got the night to myself. hopefully david can get outta work early so we can play some halo. need to kill some people online. im getting good :).
ah, well thats all i can really think of, im gonna occupy myself doing some other erroneous task. l8r. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 11th, 2005|11:02 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Coheed & Cambria | ] |
ho hum. work went okay i guess today. harassed amanda, and everyone else. mainly amanda, bc she sets herself up for comments constantly. bryson came in at 900 or so. he walekd from his house. his parents pissed him off he says. oh well. im starting to see brysons dark side a bit. got a feeling im going to be seeing it more and more. amanda is going to break his heart and its going to tear him apart.
hope enlisted in the marines....havent talked to her yet....
some dumbass left a comment on one of my entries awhile back...waiting for him/her to respond back.
off to bed, night. |
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[Dec. 4th, 2005|03:28 pm] |
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goddammit. |
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| oopsie |
[Dec. 3rd, 2005|12:04 am] |
btw, heres my grades as they stand
Latin III - B
AP Calc - B
Bio 2 Hon - B
Gov't Hon - B
Study Hall - ....
Dual Enrolled English - I (still need to finish convincing paper. rough draft turned out good, ill have a B i think if i get an A on the paper im thinking)
Bus Law.Mgmt - B (well an A now...) god i hate scharnus, shes such a hypocritcal bitch. and ignorant. and incompetant. and she requests a conference with my parents. haha. also i have disruptive behavior?... |
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| monotony |
[Dec. 2nd, 2005|11:56 pm] |
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| |  devious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Down with the Sickness - Disturbed | ] |
today was fun. went to school, went to work. then went on a wild goose chase trying to find someone to hang out with. so me and matt went to sundae grill to bug hop,e only to find out she was at LU. so we went to LU. we saw her, bugged her, made love, the usual. then as we were leaving, matt and i thought it necessary to blare "down with the sickness" around all the LU students. hahah. not only did it blare, and not only did we jam to it, and not only did we yell the words....we felt the music within. haha. think someone threw a bible at us. oh well. then we went to target, and met up with some peopel i hadnt seen in awhile. tlaked to them, reminesced, you know the usual. then hope called us, asks where we were, we said target. so she comes we meet up with her. then head to hopes house. we hung out there for awhile, listening to matt recite ron whites tater salad act, word for word..it was great, while hope screwed with my hair. haha. felt amazing! then daniel called, and he met us there. matt leaves at some point, and daniel hope and myself hang out for about 20-30 mins. daniel drives me home. im here now.
word of the day:
"smackles" - thanks to hope, who cant get her words straight haha. |
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| chicka bow wow |
[Nov. 30th, 2005|10:27 pm] |
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i started at arbys today. with matt. haha, it was fun as shit. its so much easier than little caesars and the people are cool ther eunlike subway. and the work is so easy. and i work with matt, how cool is that. finally got my rough draft for my convicning paper done, just dreading tomorrow when i finish the final. gonna be like 8-9 pages. i got shitloads of info.
talked to greg awhile today. hes seems so unaffected by the situation. im glad, it doesnt bother him what she says. he knows what happened.
im happy that my friends seem to be happier lately. hope especially. jason, ashley, and even melinda (never thought id say that haha). i feel like i havent talked to david in forever though. and in all reality, we ahvent hung out for like almsot 3 weeks. i feel like an asshole about it. oh well. guess thats the beauty of good friendships. hang out when convenient, and no hard feelings if you cant.
im also feeling happier. im not getting depressed as often. ive just not been thinking about the bad things and focusing on the things that make me happy. my friends. |
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| Conforming... |
[Nov. 27th, 2005|05:05 pm] |
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Ask me 3 questions and I'll answer them. |
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| An end to the slaughter |
[Nov. 27th, 2005|04:42 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Walking Contradiction - Green Day | ] |
At last, thanksgiving is over. no more festive spirit, or pretending to like relatives or whatever. back to our good old selves we all know and hate. oh well, apart from thursday though, my week has been...interesting i suppose. wednesday was fun, except for something that happened that i later found out about. oh well, it doesnt affect me in any way. but it affects a few people that are close to me. oh well, its over now though. friday was also fun. i love darts, and hangning out with silby. greg and silby hit it off great though. their lives are very similiar and in alot of ways intertwined. saturday morning, hope asked me to call her, so i did. heard a different story to what had happened wednesday. hope its not true, and i find it hard to beleive anyway. later that night matt and i went to see hope at sundae grill. we talked to her for a little while and it seemed she felt better about the whole situation. hung out with mandy last ngiht too for 45 mins. she still owes me and matt 2 orgasm sounds (the color game) so ill make sure that gets rainchecked. i hung out with jessica this morning, i feel better. i realyl miss hanging out with her, but thats largely my fault. i feel like shit about it. but i guess its ok, she still wants to be friends. thats what i want too. but i still care about her.
anyways, thats my update for the month, ill see msot of you monday. |
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| blargagaga |
[Nov. 13th, 2005|10:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Joyless Euphoria - Vendetta Red | ] |
Ergh, this is going to be a horrible week. I have to write a 4+ page paper for english, though the topic has quite a bit of information and i have alot of research. i have the rough draft due tuesday and the final due thursday. i have my latin project that i have no idea what im even going to do due thursday as well. i have road and range all week, not to mention the normal calc-govt-bio homework. also couped with the fact i have to find another job, because i quit little caesars bc i cant stand those ignorant bastards. im hoping something of some positive value happens this week, bc i got a feeling im going to be very stressed.
on a more positive side, the brookville-jf game was absolutely amazing. even though we lost. no idea how we lost. most my friends were painted up and whatnot, so when i got there and saw that i couldnt help but conform. so shirtless in 40 degree weather, i could have sworn my nipples were rather perky. and i still have some paint under my fingernails. ugh. and a shitload on my pants i just bought last week. oh well, they were only 12$. comfortable though.
my mom, and grandparents still havent paid me a dime of what they owe. nor have i filed my taxes. need to do that this week too. dammit.
....and in the end, all i ever do is fail myself. |
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[Oct. 27th, 2005|11:49 pm] |
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wow i havent updated in a long time. oh well. i guess i can at least make a small post to let some people know i havent 'dropped off the face of the planet', (direct quote :-P) jessica. guess ive been ok lately. i got pretty good report card grades for those that care
Latin III - A
AP Calculus - B
Bio II Honors - B
Government Honors - A
English 12 - A
Study Hall - F, sadly....haha j/k
Business Law - A
so yeah 4A's 2B's, with the weighted points its a 4.0..rock on. anyways..lets see whats new. umm.. i got switched out of english 12, which is good bc i hated arguing with my english teacher about pronunciation and her stupid policies. example.
"ill give you guys extra credit if you go to the homecoming dance"
-class is happy-
well i figured since i was going to go to macbeth at sweet briar, and every other english teacher was giving extra credit for that. and i really didnt want to spend 5$ on a damn dance none of my friends were going to.
so i asked "can we get extra credit if we go to macbeth at sweet briar?"
she said "umm i dont want to give extra credit for two things"
i respond " every other english class is, and im not going to the dance"
she says "ok i guess. just bring me your ticket stub, and write a 1-2page paper on it, ill give you a 100 homework grade."
WTF!!! go to a fucken dance or write a fucken paper on macbeth, a 2-2 1/2 hour play.... dumb bitch.
enough ranting. good news im in dual enrolled english now. mrs thompson rocks. and cool people in there..i fialed my first quiz. actually happy. i dont have spelling tests on words like prevarication and promontories. or blithe...that was a toughy.
mrs scharnus is a bitch. shes so...obsessive over control, that she doesnt have over our class. granted, i can be pretty annoying, insulting, w/e, but its always in good fun. she takes everything so literal. and john lariviere can sing shit about baby sharks...so fucken annoying i want to stragnle him.
i hate work. it sucks. i cant save money up. every week something comes up. good news, my mom owes me 200$ today. will i get it? HA! bad news.
shibby..cool word.
im gonna dye my hair black with a purple undertone. gonna be kickass. especially for halloween.
bought another clover shirt few days back. roxor!
have to work tthe next 5 days...maybe more...ergh...
i feel detached from so many of my friends. i dont talk to many of them. i either dont try to associate with them, or i do try and they dont want to. oh well, dickey, david and matt are still 3 of the coolest people i know. my girl best friend list is nonexistant. hope i guess is still one of my favorite girls but shes really depressed i think. she puts on a happy face but shes really depressed. i hope she'll be okay. i really miss jessica. i want to call her. i dont. i dont know why. i always put it off, or find an excuse not to. i hate myself. i want to be able to just make everything amiable between everyone i care about. shit happens.
ive been feeling better lately i guess. no more insomnia. alot of blocked out memories and feelings.
i want to care about stuff. i want to be motivated by something. i want to be passionate about something. i hate this general apathy for everything.
sleepy time. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 9th, 2005|08:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | apathetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dirty Little Secrets - All American Rejects | ] |
ive been feeling very indifferent and apathetic to many things that have been happening to me lately. i feel like my life is just passing by, i have little control over it, and im unaffected by things that should affect me. ive been pissing alot of people off this year already, and we are only 6 weeks into the year. and even outside of school, im pissing off friends and family, and i just dont seem to care. i want to care. i started working at subway monday, and i quit friday, because i think i was going to get fired or about to. i got sent home early, and i just was like "well ill just not come back" grabbed my shit and left. i havent talked to my younger sister in roughly a month. havent really felt like it either. i have talked to jessica for the most part for the past 2 months, and i dont know why i dont want to call her. i want to call her but i dont. people are trying to help me out and look out for me, and im just not caring. i have to do things myself, but im really not doing anything. this ever so constant monotony has phased my sense of emotion out of existence. jason gets pissed at me, i dont care. david gets pissed, i dont care. they want to try to help me, i just dont seem to care. ERGH! why cant i snap back into reality? i wonder if i really have a severe case of depression thats getting worse and worse every day. the only thing i feel like i can do is be around people. bc when im alone, i feel alone. my mind starts to begin asking questions i cant answer, and i hate myself. i really feel i hate myself right now. and not for one specific thing. i want to be me again. not this shameful thing i have become.
ive smoked a few cigarettes in the past week. i swore to myself i never would. i did. for no reason, no temptation, no frustration, just got one from somebody and smoked it. definetly overrated. oh well. i smoked a few more over the next 4 or 5 days. for no apparent reason. not addicted or anything, just to be doing it i guess. i wont anymore i dont think. i really despise them.
i just need someone to slap me, or pinch me, or punch me. or i need something lifechanging to break myself from my surrealism and to get me back into reality. |
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| Heh. |
[Sep. 28th, 2005|10:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | In The Shadows - The Rasmus | ] |
Went to court today, and i am now emancipated. yay i guess. then i gave my mom 200$ to get a car. im a dumbass. oh well. she says she will pay me back i dont think so. oh well. |
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| Politics |
[Sep. 21st, 2005|10:40 pm] |
You are a
Social Conservative
(38% permissive)
and an...
Economic Liberal
(18% permissive)
You are best described as a:
Strong Democrat
Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid |
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| Euphoria |
[Sep. 21st, 2005|10:18 pm] |
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My Pseudonym for Michael is Lucky. Isn't that awesome. I didn't do anything spectacular today, i went to school, did school stuff, ate school stuff, then i went to lunch. Here's my afternoon.
PseudoLeafClover [10:07 PM]: whats up
Margatron2k [10:09 PM]: nothing rallllllly
Margatron2k [10:09 PM]: you?
PseudoLeafClover [10:09 PM]: i ate a banana today, and i mowed the grass. then i went to sleep. then i ate the banana, then mowed the grass. after i woke up i went to target where i bought the baanan that i ate earlier, and got gas for the lawn mower. then i ate the banana and mowed the grass and im here now
so yeah great afternoon. gotta work tomorrow. BLAH!!! but i get paid Friday. ok. Hopefully going out to eat Saturday night, at Olive Garden, maybe 7-8ish. i don't know when. but IM or talk to me at school ill give you more details. |
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